Current mood:	okay
Current music:	Dream Theater - "A Change of Seasons"

The Words Stuck in My Mind...
Well hello.

Today was an interesting day. I worked from 10-530, with Melissa, and that was good, if boring.

However, the real interesting part begins with my first 15 minute break, during which I ended up talking to s!Sara again. And again, on my lunch break, when I ran into her again, and we ate lunch together - again.

What a temptress. I swear, she does it just to taunt me.

Okay, not really, but still. It kills me inside to have to sit there, and talk to this beautiful girl, knowing that I won't have the chance to date her or be anything more to her than "that nice guy at work that I talk to and sometimes eat with".

Then again, I mean...I have thought about my reasons for my feelings for her. And I think they are purely physical. My emtional feelings for her are displaced, a reflection of my feelings for someone else.

However, since any relationship with that someone else is impossible at this point, my feelings get focused on attractive, nice girls.

Why can't this be simpler?

Seriously, not to be egotistic or anything, but WHY would she say no to me? I don't think I'm a bad guy....so either she's a lesbian, or she really doesn't want a relationship.

But I doubt that. Who actually SAYS that, without it being a cover for something else?

What do you think guys, should I talk to her about this? Or am I wasting my time?

Or should I just suck it up, and wait until things with "that other someone" is possible.

But that's unfair to me, and more importantly, to her. And to s!Sara, if I were to ever date her. Becuase I know my feelings for her right now aren't for her. At least I don't think so. They are my displaced feelings for someone else.

Ack, this is confusing.

Some help, please?

Cheers.

Advice, Help? HELP ME DAMMIT!

Cheers.