I GOT RUSH TICKETS! :)

Sweet seats, too.

Recently I have come across this list of "Ten Questions to Ask Your Biology Teacher". It's being distributed by creationists (mostly in the US), and even though professional biologists have refuted these claims (http://pharyngula.org/index/weblog/comments/ten_questions_to_ask_your_biology_teacher/), my goal was to show that you don't have to be a biology teacher or even a professional biologist to do so.
(Keep in mind that I did not read the text of that above link until AFTER I wrote this, and in fact I urge to compare our two refutations to see how accurate I was.)

The knowledge of Biology that I have gained through high school, the first 3 weeks of University-level Biology and Anthropology, as well as my own personal research of what scientists are saying was used to create this refutations.

And now, on with it!

( Here we go... )

Please comment and let me know what you think.

Okay, well....all my entries from now (and about the last 5 or so) will be Friends Only, so make sure that if you want to view my journal, log in first.

All my old entries will be still be public, until I eventually get around to changing them all.

Cheers.

Well, I have to work today at 4:30 instead of 6:30, they called me in early. Yay.

Not.

Oh well. Hopefully I can find something interesting/fun to do until then. But probably not.

The book I'm reading is really, really good. I really should be reading the book I'm supposed to have done for English, but it sucks compared to my other book. So it can wait.

I feel so....wierd. I don't know, I can't explain it. Maybe I need to go have a bash at my drums or something. Maybe that'll help.

Christmas is soon! This excites me. I always like Christmas. Except, I have to work on Boxing Day, from 9-530. Ack.

Oh yeah, you Americans don't know what Boxing Day is, do you? It's our name (and the Brits, too) for the day after Christmas. Big sales, etc. The shops and malls are very crowded. The name comes from something that old English lords used to do. On the day after Christmas, they'd take some of the stuff that they didn't want/need, and box it up, and give it to their staff. Or something like that.

Either way, it's going to be pretty damn crazy. But, I work with Kayla, so that's cool. I also work with Kayla on the 27th, too.

I also volunteered to work on New Years Day. From 12-8. Fun eh? :P

Anyway, I've got nothing else. Perhaps I'll post more later before I go.

Cheers.

( 2003 Survey )

Hmmm...I don't have much else of substance to say yet. More to come later in the day.

Cheers.

Well, I am in love with my drums! :)

Except my arms and hands are sore. Oh well, it's all worth it!

But, besides the drums, I'm really quite bored, as usual. And when I get bored, my mind tends to think about stuff that it shouldn't be thinking about, and I start to get depressed. So, quick, someone make me un-bored! Quickly!

Um, yeah.

The library called yesterday and said that the book I put on hold is waiting for me. So I'm going to go pick it up today or tommorow. I'm really looking forward to reading it. It's called To Your Scattered Bodies Go..., by Phillip Jose Farmer. It's the first book in the Riverwold series. My dad recommended it to, and it sounds really cool, so I'm going to give it a read.

Except that I have to read this book for English, The Poisonwood Bible. And I really don't want to. But, I haven't even started it yet, so who knows. It could be interesting.

SO much homework. And so little motivation to do it. Oh well.

Maybe I'll have a shower. That should alleviate my boredom for about 20 minutes. But then I'll need something else to distract me. So, someone come on AIM. Please? Please?

Thank you. :)

Cheers.

Whoa...........*has drum!orgasm*

Wow.

Drums.

Finallly!

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Except other than that, I'm bored out of my skull...no one is on AIM...seems they've all dissappeared. Great.

Oh well.

Time to play more drums.

Cheers.

WASHINGTON (AP) - After winning concessions from Libya, President Bush urged other nations to recognize that the pursuit of nuclear, chemical and biological weapons brings not influence or prestige, but "isolation and otherwise unwelcome consequences."

Hmm..and WHO has the worlds largest nuclear arsenal? Fucking hipocrites.

Okay, enough political bullshit.

I was feeling pretty down in my last entry (as some of you so brilliantly deduced), and in fact, I was. I was also really tired, becuase after I posted that I went and slept for 2 hours, lol. Then my family and I went on a drive to look at Christmas lights and stuff...and by that I mean lights on people's houses, all over the city. 'Tis fun, and 'tis a tradition.

You know what I hate? Being dissapointed. Yet I let myself feel that way all too often.

Like this afternoon. It was the main cause of my "down-ness".

I just watched Bruce Almighty with the fam. Friggin HILARIOUS movie. See it, now, if you haven't already. 'Tis good stuff.

I have so much homework to do over the break...argh. I have to read a novel, memorize a soliloquy from Hamlet, and do the Act 2, 3 AND 4 assignments. Fun.

Now that I've read/heard Hamlet, I want to see a real play verison of it at a theatre. NOW, dammit.

Um, yeah. Not a whole hell of a lot more to say.

DRUM SET TOMMOROW! WOOOOOOOOO!

If I had a digital camera I'd take a picture to show you all when I get it...but I don't. But this picture is pretty much what it will be:



That's her, except I'm getting 2 more cymbals...

SO excited.

Cheers.

( A Huge Quiz and a Test, Becuase I'm So Damn Bored )

Wow, I'm a loser. I love sitting infront of a computer for hours, doing nothing of use. I also love it when there's no one to talk to.

Well, not much more to say here, frankly.

Cheers.

I love my first period spare on Thursdays. And I'm going to really miss it when it's gone next semester...:(

Last night at work was okay, I suppose. I met ANOTHER Sarah, though..lol. She works in Electronics. So, from now on, she will be refered to as electronics!Sarah, or e!Sarah if I'm feeling lazy, lol. s!Sara was working too, and we talked for a bit, but not for very long. We have a nice rapport now, but I don't think anything more will come of it anytime soon.

However, I enjoyed some very excellent banter with e!Sarah, which was pretty cool for just meeting her.

I also talked with Amy, who is really funny, and very nice.

This all goes to show how much I've changed over the past year. Time was that I'd have NEVER have made friends so easily, especially girls...but in this case, they're all girls, lol. Yay me.

I'm waiting for Helen to come on AIM, and thus I am very bored. But, I really don't have a whole hell of a lot more to say right now, so....yeah.

Cheers.

Just finished the 'Bachelor of the Month' interview thing with Jen. It was okay, I guess, but things like that always never represent me properly. To know me, you have to talk to me.

But, whatever, it's all in good fun.

School is horrible. I hate it. I'm staring at my half-done Act 2 assignment, and I'm still getting no where. And I have to shoot an entire movie in Commtech. Then I have the rest of the week to edit it - and then 2 more modules to do in 2 weeks. Yay. Not fun. I hate being rushed.

Well, here I am, on my spare - on the computer. I love being lame.

I plan on writing The Story of Brandon's Life this weekend, so look forward to that.

I'm serious. Be excited. Yes.

Anyway, I'm done, becuase trying to talk to Chelsea and type this at the same time is annoying her.

Cheers.

( Christmas Survey )

Today was a really boring day. I had a double spare, and nothing worthwhile at all to do. So, I basically did nothing. Yay exciting me.

However, Jen asked me if I wanted to be featured as part of the "Bachelor and Bachelorette of the Month" column in the school paper...so I said sure. Why not? It should be fun, if I don't make an ass out of myself, lol. The guys in it always try to be stupid and funny, but I think I might end that tradition by being mostly serious and witty. But then, that doesn't make for interesting reading, does it? Oh well.

Today, my fucking bus was about 40 minutes late coming home from school. How the hell can you be THAT late? All the other buses got there on time. There was only a handful of us left anyway, but it was better than taking the train and stuff.

So, FINALLY, I will be getting my drum set on Saturday. After a 2 week delay, the dream will finally be realized. Damn delays. In all seriousness, I'm so excited. Well, I have been for two weeks, but still - the excitement continues.

Today in English we finished Hamlet, and let me tell you I have never seen a class so dumbstruck. None of us really knew what to say...I don't think we could really believe that it was over....What a great play, though. The best, by far.

In other news, I'm not feeling as messed up or confused as I was in my last entry. That has all been taken care of, and I am now focused.

Except for the fact that I am WAY behind in English assignments, I have a movie to shoot, and edit in CommTech, and I have a Chem exam tommorow that I'm not 100% studied for. Damn school.

Well, I best get working on all that.

Cheers.

Well hello.

Today was an interesting day. I worked from 10-530, with Melissa, and that was good, if boring.

However, the real interesting part begins with my first 15 minute break, during which I ended up talking to s!Sara again. And again, on my lunch break, when I ran into her again, and we ate lunch together - again.

What a temptress. I swear, she does it just to taunt me.

Okay, not really, but still. It kills me inside to have to sit there, and talk to this beautiful girl, knowing that I won't have the chance to date her or be anything more to her than "that nice guy at work that I talk to and sometimes eat with".

Then again, I mean...I have thought about my reasons for my feelings for her. And I think they are purely physical. My emtional feelings for her are displaced, a reflection of my feelings for someone else.

However, since any relationship with that someone else is impossible at this point, my feelings get focused on attractive, nice girls.

Why can't this be simpler?

Seriously, not to be egotistic or anything, but WHY would she say no to me? I don't think I'm a bad guy....so either she's a lesbian, or she really doesn't want a relationship.

But I doubt that. Who actually SAYS that, without it being a cover for something else?

What do you think guys, should I talk to her about this? Or am I wasting my time?

Or should I just suck it up, and wait until things with "that other someone" is possible.

But that's unfair to me, and more importantly, to her. And to s!Sara, if I were to ever date her. Becuase I know my feelings for her right now aren't for her. At least I don't think so. They are my displaced feelings for someone else.

Ack, this is confusing.

Some help, please?

Cheers.

Advice, Help? HELP ME DAMMIT!

Cheers.

They captured Saddam Hussien.

Crazy.

I never thought they would...I wonder what will happen now?

I don't have time to say anything else; I have to go to work.

I'll post when I get home.

Cheers.

( Survey, becuase I'm bored )

Well, work was very, slow. Excrusiatingly slow.

Damn, I can't spell.

Well, I met a new work!friend: Amy. She's cool. She works at Layaway, and sometimes at the Courtesy Desk, and I've seen her alot but only started talking to her recently. She's a year older than I am, and very nice.

I was trying to figure out today why all the people I seem to talk to lately are girls, and I figured it out - it's becuase most girls around my age are way more mature than most guys my age. It's a revelation!

Well, not really. I kinda knew that already, but it was good to actually, fully realize it.

Well, my department was clean, and SO boring, that I was in Seasonal with original!Sarah for a while, helping Amy in Layaway for a while, and just generally walking around.

I'm getting some vibes from o!Sarah, and I have been for a while. Maybe it's just me, or maybe it's just the fact that we're better friends now, I don't know.

My goodness, s!Sara looked SO damn hot today...I had to restrain myself from jumping all over her, lol....Seriously.

Except, what pisses me off is that sometimes I think she's flirting with me, and I go "What the fuck? You turned me down, why are you bothering?" Or maybe it's just me mis-reading things again. Who knows?

Either way, I don't care anymore. As I've said, I've decided to not even try when it comes to girls. It's not worth it.

At least, not right now, and not right here. And not this way.

But that's another story, for another day, and another time.

I'll be up at around 8ish, my time, tommorow morning....if anyone is around, please, PLEASE come online so I'm not bored before I go to work. Thanks. :)

I'll post before I leave.

Cheers.

Stupid fucking excite.com isn't working properly - which means I can't check my email. ARGH!

Plus, Helen never came on today, and we didn't get a chance to talk. That makes me kinda sad.

I have to work at 6:30.

This isn't the greatest night ever.

HOWEVER

Now that I have your attention back, I can tell you that I just made another journal. I made it for all my creative stuff, like songs, music, lyrics and stuff like that. Head on over to beaconhill to check it out. It's friends only, so just comment and I'll add you - I don't want people I don't know stealing my hard work!

Do it. Now.

Anyway, that's about all I have. Sorry I didn't post before work last night, but I didn't have time. There's really nothing new to talk about anyway.

I work tommorow at 10am, so I'll be on before I leave (7:30, 8-ish, until I leave), if any of you are going to be around then.

More later.

Cheers.

( Survey That's Making the Rounds )

A real update will come before work.

Cheers.

John Wells can just go and die.

No wonder Orman left. I don't blame him.

However, I still love this show. Why? I don't know. I guess I just always will, no matter what.

Yeah. Carter can go to hell though. So can Kem. And Wells.

I did like the "Is she blond?" joke for all of us internet fans though. That was clever.

So, they tell me that the play was fantastic. Oh well, I don't really care. I've stopped caring, really. I missed out - so what? It's not the end of the world.

I work today at 4:30...which is okay, becuase it'll give me something to do. Before that I'll just be relaxing at home, so...yeah.

The only Christmas Carol that I can stand is "Carol of the Bells". You know this one, right? If you don't recognize the name, don't worry - you've heard it. Everyone has. Download, you'll see.

It's the only one I can stand because all the rest of them are so....old. And cliche. And I've heard them a thousand times. Plus, at work, I hear the ALL day, and they pound themselves into my brain. Way to ruin Christmas music for me, Wal-Mart. I never want to here "The 12 Days of Christmas" ever again. EVER.

So, becuase I like "Carol of the Bells" so much, I'm going to record my own version, using guitar and keyboard. I was inspired by the version done by The Trans Siberian Orchestra. Get their version to see what I mean - it's brilliant. Plus, it's fun to play, so I should have a good time.

Look for that in the near future.

I'm on a spare right now, but I have CommTech next, so I'll still be around and checking my email often, so don't hesiste to comment or email me, if anyone is around.

Cheers.

I was supposed to go to my school's theatre production of The Elephant Man with Geoff and Eric and Anneka, but now I don't feel like going. So I'm not.

It's as simple as that really. I was looking forward to it, but now I'm not. So I'm not going.

Yay for WANTING to have no life.

I always seem to choose the option that takes me the least "social" route. I mean, obviously I could still choose to go, but I don't want to - I'm not feeling it. And my feelings are what I go by.

In other news, school was damn broing today. I fucking hate days like this. The only intersting part was talking to Dustin about philosphical stuff and the meaing of life and choice, chance, and fate and all that. That was cool.

Talked to Helen this morning, as has become the usual for Thursdays. Damn, it's going to suck next semester without my spare....:(

Okay, messages:

Mel - If you feel like getting your mind off stuff, do you want to email me back about what I asked you?
Helen - Hopefully I'll talk to you tommorow (or Today, since your probably reading this on Friday). The hour this morning just flew by.
Grace - Will you be on AIM tonight? You know you want to!
Kori - Same question! Where have you been?

Random stuff:

I'm excited/apprehensieve for ER
I hate school days like today
Found some ER-loving people in Chem class today, except one of them is a Luby - EVIL!
Dustin and I have great conversations
Some people are pissing me off, alot, more and more every day
When I thought I got a wieght of my shoulders - I didn't. Now new questions have popped up.
Why can't things be a little different? Just a little?
Will things turn out okay? The way I want them too?
What if I don't accomplish anything before I duie
What if I don't spend someone to spend the rest of my life with
What if I'm lonely forever?
What?
Who?
Where?
When?
Why?

Cheers.

Well, it's been a while since I've posted. Why, you ask? Well, simply becuase nothing exciting has been going on.

Frankly, nothing feels worthy of being written about. I'm behind (again) on stuff in school that I'm just not doing. This assignment on Act 2 of Hamelt, and this Chemistry lab. And I should be doing them right now - but I'm not.

What does that say about me? Not much...:(

Well, here is the rest of the week outlined:

Tommorow (Wednesday): It's a meh day, nothing special. Then I work at 4:30. Yay. Not.
Thursday: I love Thursdays, for a couple of reasons. One, I have my spare first period, which means I get to stay home and talk to Helen and relax. Plus, I always enjoy going in late, becuase I have to take the regular bus, and the C-Train (our name for our inner-city light rail transit system) and I feel so....independant, and I love it. Plus, it's ERsday!
Friday: I work at 4:30, but before that I have the afternoon off (as always) so I'm going to kick back, and relax, and maybe Helen and some other people will be around for me to talk to again.
Saturday: Getting my drum set! Yeah! This is very exciting. But it is somewhat tempered by the fact that I have to work at 6:30....oh well, I'll live.
Sunday: I work during the day, so...yeah. Not such a fantastic day, really.

So, after tommorow the week improves...but then with Sunday goes downhill again. However, Christmas break starts December 19th! :) That is very exciting, for sure.

Somedays I just wish I was somewhere else, doing something different, with different people and a lovely girl.

Like today. That's all I could think about today.

There are some people who are good (Eric, Kayla, Lara and some random people in some of my classes who are good) and that's about it. Everyone else can just go to hell, or at least that's how I felt today. I just want to be somewhere different....or at least WITH someone different - or someone at all.

I know I said I was going to give up on girls, but it's not going to be as easy as it sounds. I have this crazy idea in my head that I can't let go of...

Yeah.

Anyway, that's all I feel like typing for now. Sorry for my absence, I promise to not let it happen again - for my own sanity, as well as your reading pleasure.

PS - I know I'm leaving it to the last minute, but does anyone want a Christmas card from me? If so, email your address to b-beasley@excite.com.

Cheers.